Rather than reflecting only on January, I find myself having to reflect on 2025 as well.
This month I built the foundation of what is to come: this website. It turned out to be more meaningful to me than I expected. Other places for sharing creative work (like social media) felt like too big a leap for how little I have to offer right now. Here, I have a safe space. I can share at my own pace.
I have been preparing this site for a long time, but real-life struggles kept getting in the way. Slowly, things are beginning to change. I am changing too. In my late youth, I was at the peak of my creative energy. Over the years, that energy faded… until last year it felt almost gone. That loss made me sad. Depressed, even. I feared I would never be able to access that creative state again.
What actually happened was my mind and body telling me that things were not okay the way they were. It took a painful journey to realize this, and much of it I am still figuring out. But something shifted. I began to feel it again: enjoying music, daydreaming, fantasizing… inspiration!
This month, I finally felt alive again.
It’s a coincidence that this feeling overlaps with the start of a new year. Well, here I am, collecting ideas again, slowly but surely creating the things I dreamed about for years.
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